Every personal success is squelched or held under duress every time you insist on pawning them off to your religious vices; and God has no trouble stealing your glory when along with the "power" and the "kingdom" you just give it away. You give it away so freely.
And, it's great that adults maintain active imaginations but let's try to pay attention to when subjugation instills us with Stockholm Syndrome.
The issue isn't even that you believe (or even so much why you believe). It's how you believe. Your self esteem will continue you to bottom-feed for as long as you see fit to deny yourself.