I don't follow stocks; I know it's useless, and politics got me nothing done. I can't stand to have a job, I always lose it, and praying to God was never enough fun. But don't you gaze at me. I don't want anyone to see what's happening to me. It's too embarrassing. I never took on life with too much fervor. I don't know the rules, don't have the answers. I just spend my days accomplishing nothing, just wishing I could ever mean something. But we're all too small for that; just clouds of buzzing gnats in the epic mystery. It's so embarrassing.